Tea anyone

So here I sit, post specialist appointment. I am feeling more optimistic of the future. I have to go for another test yet to find out a little more but that won't be until next month (hopefully). I had given up hope for a while there, living in a dark hole of emotions. And then I went through a stage of "I don't care" and now I'm back on a "Everyone has their own journey and this is mine" type of outlook. I've had this outlook for about two weeks now and I have to say it's a lot more fun than the dark hole mode. I understand that I am being very vague in my discussion right now and you may not know exactly what I'm talking about. There is a reason for my vagueness. B and I had talked about how much we would share on my blog since it's not a secure site. I want to share more depth in my journey and be an open book, for simply the reason of sharing so if anyone else is going through the same thing they will find they are not alone. In the ups and most of all the downs. It's really an emotional roller coaster and it's no fun at all. But trying to find yourself within it all is the biggest struggle of all. So once I've talked to B about it some more it will determine how much I share. I don't have a problem talking about it in person. No need to walk on eggshells about it. It's not taboo in my mind.

On a much lighter note...B bought me a new tea set this weekend. I wasn't expecting it and it's so darling! I absolutely love it. It makes me want to have a tea party. I've had about 10 cups of tea from it already and my bladder thanks me, I'm sure. It's so wonderful. But that wasn't all...we also got this great loose leaf tea called, "Creamy Nut Loolong" So amazing! It has such a calming affect and is just perfect for a snowy day curled up under a blanket, just like today. Here a is a picture of it.

Yesterday B and I went to his parents house for dinner. His brother, our sister and our cute little nephew were all there too! Such a great visit and so many cuddles. I love our nephews little smile...he's so sweet he has the most adorable dimples! B's mom made an amazing meal and I've gotta get the recipe for the ribs she made because they were so scrumptious!

It's Friday and all is well!

New post. I am sitting here with another quiet evening at home. B went to another hockey game. This time he took a friend with him. He asked me if I wanted to go, like always, but alas I said, if he could find someone else who wanted to go to take them, and if he couldn't find someone than I would go as a last resort. Fortunately his friend was more than happy to go. Whew. Then he asked me what I was planning on doing with my evening my response: Wedding shows on TLC!!! I love wedding shows, always have and always will! They are so fun to watch. I'm such a girl. I remember after we got married the first time I watched a wedding show B was confused as to why I was watching it. I told him I just love to watch them. But, you're already married, I thought you were just watching them for research, was his response. haha. I love him!

I wish people could visit my brain sometimes. And sometimes I assume people know what I'm thinking and wonder why they are looking at me like I'm an alien when I talk...well I thought you were in on that conversation I had inside my head. I wish this was possible sometimes because I sometimes can't find the words that I need to explain what I'm thinking and why. You know what I mean?! Shouldn't it just be understood without words?? That was my random thought....see if you could just be inside my head you would be entertained with these thoughts all day. Just take a moment and imagine what your day would look like?! Interesting isn't it?!

I went to another specialist appointment yesterday. I'm a little uneasy because I have an appointment on Monday to find out the results. It's one of those things where I'm going to find out some answers for some questions that may or may not change my life. But we'll see how it goes. Until then, this weekend shall be fun!

Well that's about all for now

Until next time

Michelle

HHD (Happy Hump Day)

It's Wednesday and I think I'm gonna have a cup of tea. Oh that reminds me...wait there for one second, ah, much better, I just went and put on my pj bottoms(which are sooo cozy) and I turned the temperature up 2 degree's because my hubby likes to turn it down over night and while we are at work. This is great energy saving technique however, I feel the difference in just 2 degrees. Who knew? Apparently I'm a diva now.

So last weekend was fun. We had dinner with B's parents last Friday evening. Such fun. Then on Saturday I made pizza (from scratch) and chocolate chip cookies and we had some friends and family over. We were going to watch the movie, "The Other Guys" thinking we were so cool for renting this movie on our Apple TV just to find out once everyone got there that we had ALL seen it already. But because our clan is so cool we all still watched it again. Then came Sunday, we went to church and then out for lunch because B's Grandma wanted to take us for lunch (we went to ABC restaurant and I had the Thai Chicken salad and it was amazingly awesome!) and then we had B's cousin come over and we watched the movie AGAIN! Nerd alert! When we like something we REALLY like it. What's up with all these capitals? I guess I'm yelling those words at you, or I'm just going for emphasis, which ever one you choose it to be. I personally like the thought of me yelling the words...but that's just me. Maybe it's because my skills in yelling are so weak. I've tried yelling before and B just shakes his head and says, "That's still not yelling" or "What was that?" FAIL! I guess I put my energy into other things. I remember on my practicum the guy I was shadowing kept putting me in situations where I would have to use my loud voice. I purchased a whistle...this did the trick :) Modification is my middle name. Not really, my middle name is Lee.

Wow ramble alert. Can you tell I'm at home alone right now? I am in need of some social time and guess what my blog is where I went. Lucky for you. But really I don't feel bad because you can stop reading at any time or come back to it later or not read it at all. I won't know the difference. That is until we meet in person and I ask you or better yet, quiz you on your knowledge of my life.

Well, that's about all there is to report for now. Hoping for a great rest of the week to everyone.

Michelle-Lee

Keep on Truckin'

This past weekend was a fun one. B went to a hockey game with his cousin on Friday night and I had a quiet evening at home. It was great! The following day, Saturday we totally slept in. I seriously felt like I had slept in until 9 and was surprised to see an 11 on the clock. Wow! So we got up and puttered around. I can't remember exactly what it was that we did for that day...hmm..I made banana muffins in the evening. Oh right, I used my elliptical machine while watching Lion King. What a good way to wake up and such a great movie to watch while trying to keep moving too. The songs pick up tempo just when you're ready to quit. I really enjoyed it anyways. Then there was some other puttering around the house that we did and I think we went to the store once that day too...seriously a blur. Then on Sunday we went to church. It was good and it opened my eyes to why I haven't wanted to go to church lately. I am working through some issues. It was good though, to have my eyes opened and I can see that there are some struggles I'll be facing but I'm not so dark in my thinking around those things any more. Believe me though, I sometimes still have my feelings of doubt but I am going to be as positive as I can. This doesn't make any sense to you does it? Well..if it makes you feel better I don't think it is suppose to. I think it's just my inner ramblings on dealing with things. So thanks for listening to my inner blurb.

Anyways, after church we went for lunch with B's family. Then we came home and did a few things around the house. Afterwards we went to Cam and Becky's for a short while and then off to a birthday party of a friend of B's. That was a lot of fun. It seemed like we jam packed yesterday with as many visiting opportunities as possible and it was great. I enjoyed it.

Then there was today, so far I have done two loads of laundry, had some lunch, painted two pictures and I have yet to do Monday cleaning, a workout and paint another picture. I will post some pictures of the pictures I painted once they are dry and hanging on the wall. I really hope they turn out ok.

Well, that's about all there is to know about me today

Michelle

Weekend!

Wow, I have a huge bruise, it's actually a cluster of 7 bruises on my shin on my left leg. They were all accumulated today at work. No it wasn't any of the kids I was working with. The actual culprit was myself, well sort of. It was the two metal buttons on the side of my pants. Every time I crossed my legs, or crawled on the floor these two buttons would push into my flesh, bursting the blood vessels and creating hematomas. Hence a bruise cluster. But I have to tell you it was one of the most fun ways to get them. I really am enjoying my new schedule. I am loving the learning of new ways of doing things. What worked for kid A doesn't necessarily work for kid B and therefore learning a new way of teaching is required. I love this! It gets my creative thinking on the go and I love being creative. Don't get me wrong though, it's exhausting! Always having to be "on". Just think, it's like teaching but always having a back up plan, and then a back up plan for your back up plan. You are always thinking and also thinking of how can I make this easier to learn for this child, what way does this child learn best, visual/oral/textural etc. Also knowing, what works for this child, how can I make this lesson more fun to learn, how do I keep it interesting for myself so it doesn't get stale. It's tiring, but I LOVE it!

Anyways, enough about work. B says I talk about work all the time. I can't seem to help it. I mean to only say one little thing and suddenly I notice that I've actually spilled about a novels worth of information to someone who may not have cared about the little thing. Oops. I guess it's a wee bit narcissistic of me. I sometimes think, I care so much about these little people that I forget that not everyone is involved and they don't necessarily have the same passion as I.

I am excited for this weekend. I am going to be painting a few pictures to hang in the dining room. I am going to be using my new elliptical trainer that I bought off of castanet (I am such a castanet junkie) (It's a local online newspaper and has classifieds and I am a junkie to that section..I'll make a list of the things I've bought off of it and you will be impressed!) I am also going to make some banana muffins (I know a huge project but I will conquer it!) I'm also noticing today that I like brackets. Just a tid for tat for you. I believe that's all I'm going to be doing this weekend. I am excited for it and can't believe it's the weekend already. I really believe that snow day broke things up and gave such a breath of fresh air. Now it's time to buckle down and maybe even hang some more photo frames up around the house.

Ok, as promised, my shopping adventures from Castanet and kijiji have helped me to score:

A sleigh bed frame for $100

4 new appliances (fridge/stove/microwave/dishwasher) (one year old) $1100

Elliptical trainer $50 (only used once)

A convectional oven $400

Deep Freezer $Free

(This is a picture of part of the bed frame..the headboard got cut out...but it's basically the same as the foot board, but higher) I think that's the complete list. I may have to update again to correct any mistakes I may have made. Well until next time

Michelle

SNOW DAY

Today I am home from work due to all the snow outside. Part of yesterday was cancelled too because the roads are just not safe and they would rather have everyone safe than risk coming in. I have never worked at a job where "snow days" exist. With being a server it's like, it doesn't matter if there's a tornado outside, you're still working(yes this has actually happened to me before as a server, freakiest shift I ever worked!)

So what do you do with an unexpected day off and can't really go anywhere because the roads are like a skating rink? You update your blog of course! The last few days have been a huge learning curve. I got my new schedule and I have pretty much all new kids (new to me). So that bag of tricks I have for those other kids may or may not work with my new group. I am so excited and eager to get to know these little guys and build some relationships with them. I love my job.

B and I are in the works of setting up house once again. I took off the Christmas season to entertain and visit with family. Now that the dust has settled again we are back at it.

Well, that's about all there is to report for now. I hope you're all having a great day so far.

Michelle

Sunday Afternoon Tea

Blah blah blah. There, that's my update. haha. Just kidding. I had a great day today, tiring, but fun. B woke me up to get ready for church, but because I had gone to bed late last night my body was tired and did not feel very refreshed. Plus my nose was plugged and all day long my eyes have been burning and trying to close themselves.

The last couple of nights I've had some really odd dreams. Such as the one where I walked into a room with caskets lining the entire room. In each casket laid a baby that had so much makeup on it that they all looked like porcelain dolls. It was such a morbid dream, yet so vivid and real like. I was disturbed for the rest of the day, I kept looking up "dream interpretations and what I came up with was that both "death" and "baby" in dreams represent new beginnings and innocence. If you have another interpretation of what you think it might mean be my guest and leave me your explanation in the comment section.

Than last night I had another weird dream. I don't remember any more what it was but I remember waking up and thinking, what was that about?! haha. Anyways, so we went to church this morning and then I went for lunch with one of my long time friends. We had just lost touch in the last year and a half and I love that we have the kind of friendship where we can be open and honest and jump right into the nitty gritties of each other's lives and it's like no time has passed. I love my friend! She's amazing. We both laughed and cried and just reconnected. It was a great afternoon! Than B and I came home and my cold took over. I look around and see all the house work that needs to be done, but my eyes are burning and I have no energy. I know, I know, woe is me. I just better not be getting sick!

I'm excited for this new week to start. I have a new January schedule and I'm excited to see what it's going to be like. I'm also wondering if my body is ever going to go back to "normal". I find myself sometimes, most times lately, getting sucked into negative thoughts and I found that this last week I found myself choosing to look on the positive side more often. I hope this continues. I also hope it increases.

Well, here's hoping for a cheerful 2011!

Michelle