Dreams are interesting. I once heard or read (not sure which) that if you remember your dream when you wake up it was in fact a message not a dream. Well I had such last night/this morning. I woke up and it had been so vivid and real and really stuck with me. So much so that I wanted to go back to sleep so I could really finish it even thought I already understood that was as far as the story was going to go. Let's get into it shall we.
The dream: I was in college (hello throw back). There was a weird vote going on and the two people with the lowest amount of votes would have to do a floor cleaning face off. This was no ordinary dirty floor. It was linoleum flooring with all kinds of grease, oil, black goop really dug into the mini crevices. It was a super long floor (think 1/4 length of a football field). We were given a tiny scrubby, metal in texture. It was a daunting task. As I walked up towards the competition I was feeling defeated, over powered. Down on myself. I was in this position because I had the lowest or 2nd lowest votes of the entire school body to be there. I had to prove my worth in staying. It wasn't fair.
As I got closer I heard a small still voice. "Talk to me". As I started cleaning I prayed. I continued to pray for the school body, I prayed that everyone learning there would go into the world and spread kindness and love. That they would be enriched with knowledge to really help in their field of specialty. I also just prayed to talk to God. Not to ask for anything, just to talk and be in his presence. Suddenly I was stopped by the organizer. I had finished cleaning and didn't realize it. I was so busy in chatting with God that not only did I not notice that I was done cleaning, I was frantically searching for more dirt to clean so I didn't have to stop.
This may seem like a really weird dream that makes no sense. But to me it brought comfort. I have learned in the last couple of weeks that 3 people in my family have cancer. I learned this in the matter of 4 hours. I was numb for about a week after learning this. We as a family decided to go camping. A great place to reset and process I thought. Well, not so much. When we got there there was a large forest fire near by and we were constantly being covered in ash. Then 2 days later we found out there was a large forest fire near our home and we were now in evacuation order. Meaning we couldn't go home for the foreseeable future. My thoughts were, "yep. This seems about right". I think it was super helpful in a way that my feelings and thoughts were numb. It helped me to see it for what it is, it's just stuff. What's important are the people and animals are safe and sound. Everything else is just a replaceable thing.
How does it relate to this dream you may be wondering. I'm taking it as this, there's so much gross, dirty, toxic filth in our lives. We can focus on this and have a doom and gloom outlook on it. Or we can get down on our hands and knees, pray through it and spend some time with our heavenly Father who won't leave us in our times of struggle. He will meet us in the filth and grime and see us through. Also he's an amazing conversationalist. When you tune your ear to hear Him, you never want the conversation to end.
Sending much love and kindness your way. Love God. Love Others
Michelle
