This one is for my sister

Here is a quick update for my sister. There will be more in the next bit. Very busy with the events of life. But I will be back soon to update you properly.

A quick update on my last post, my body has gone back to normal and my health issues are subsiding! Woo hoo! And I'm no longer in such a funk.

Now What

Today was a good day. I woke up in a funk. Probably because I haven't been sleeping well since being back. I was up again last night at 3am. I am also extremely anxious about tomorrow. We find out if the house we've been pining over is ours or not. If it's not than I will be deeply sad because I really like this house. However, it's not the end all be all of all houses and life will go on. However, I am going to take my right and pout over it for a good week before moving on. This is my final answer.

I am also having a few health issues. I'm not going to get into it but this has also been troubling me and playing havoc with my mental well being. I just want everything to go back to normal. Hopefully things will be brought to light when I go to see a specialist in a the next few weeks. I am not going to say what it is or talk about it at all so please refrain from asking. Thank you in advance, I just needed to get that off my chest so I wasn't carrying it all alone again. Instead if you could just pray for a general health prayer that would be greatly appreciated.

I have noticed something within myself, it's no revelation by all means because I knew this about myself, just noticed it a lot more lately and want to maybe change it. I say maybe because it might become too hard the further in it goes. I've noticed that I don't open up. I don't talk about my feelings. I'm quick to listen to others pour out their hearts but in turn I am selfish with my troubles and thoughts. I don't care to share them, or think that I am strong enough on my own to deal with them. Or maybe I want to appear as though I'm happy all the time with no troubles, far from the truth. So maybe, just maybe I will start to pour out a little more....but like I said, this might not happen the deeper it gets right. Who wants to reveal their inner turmoil. Whatever, we'll see what comes.

Other than all that, today was a great day! I had one little fella that I worked with and he was a shining star today! He was so motivated to work and we just had a blast. The second little fella I worked with today was also a joy. He made me laugh as we kicked leaves outside and he giggled non-stop. So much fun! I love the fall.

Well, until next time

Michelle

UK 101

Well, I wasn't expecting to have the time or the internet access this soon in our journey but lucky for you we have time to kill and the internet on our side to give you a little update on our journey so far. We are sitting in the Calgary airport waiting for our first flight to board, about an hour left to go. Why do we have to be here so early? Anyways, we had breakfast with my dad first thing this morning at Denny's and we were able to see Sharilin hard at work because she was working there this morning. I had the the incredible yummy bbq chicken for breakfast (It's was dinner time in London ok?) and Brenton had the bacon and eggs special. Yum! It was great socializing with my Dad, I feel like I haven't seen him for so long. We were able to catch up on all the ongoings and he is actually at the beginning of his own trip today. He's going to Kelowna. Funny how that happens. He is hoping to be back on the same day we arrive back too. So crazy!

Well, I had this one big elaborate post written up that continued for a lengthy time and lost it all because the internet in the airport was sketchy and it made me mad and now I can't remember what I had rambled about.

New update though, our flight was great, other than the screaming children that kept us awake the whole time. Our day in Manchester was incredible to see all the cool looking buildings and the fancy clothes the women wear. And our trip to Edinburgh was smooth sailing and has so far been a huge success. I found out that one of my friends from high school has just moved here about a month ago so we have plans to go for dinner with her on Thursday evening. She gave us a few hints on what to hit up and we plan to do just that.

Well until later, gotta get out the door.

Michelle

Exciting Times

So much excitement in such a short time. I can't believe it's only 1 week until my newest member in the family is expected to arrive. I also can't believe it's only one more sleep until I head to the UK, Scotland and Italy. It's going to be an amazing trip. My bags are packed and I'm ready to go. I am so looking forward to seeing our friends that live there. It's going to be great!

I am sure I'll have lots of stories to share with you after the trip, but for now I'm just so excited I can't think straight enough to write a proper blog update for you. I promise once I'm back I will share all with you :)

Until than, happy 2 weeks

Michelle

Weekends are GREAT!

I have done some tidying and now I'm procrastinating from the actual cleaning part. Arg. I shouldn't really, I should just jump in and get it done. I always enjoy the after affect so why do I seem to want to pro-long it? Weird. Anyways I thought you would enjoy an update instead.

Last night I had a nightmare that one of my co-workers came over and the kitchen was in it's array that it was and I was so embarrassed. So I woke up knowing that it was clean house day and that little nightmare really pumped me up to get it done. So it will be done by 2:30! Yes. I just set myself a goal and it's an attainable goal! It's really just a matter of washing 2 pots, wiping the counters and cleaning the bathrooms and then finishing the laundry. Not a big deal at all!

This past weekend was a weekend of relaxation. Saturday consisted of sleeping in and watching movies, I eventually ventured out and went to B's parents house and had a visit while B worked on his car. (He was painting the bumper). Than I came home and had a quiet evening to myself while B was at a hockey game with his Dad. I watched a show on TLC called Women of Block 6 or something like that. And it was good. It's about these prison inmates and their journey and stories. After watching it I decided I never want to go to jail. (Like it had crossed my mind before). Later that night I had a dream that one of my cousins was going to jail and I was sad. Than it turned out that all she had to do was run errands. It was weird.

Sunday was a funny day. I went up to the Sunday school classroom that I helped out in last year and I waited for the young lady that I work with to show up. About halfway through the morning someone asked me don't you work with so and so and I was like yeah. And they said, you realize that she's in grade 2 now right? I was shocked and then said, well of course she is. I was in the wrong classroom. So I went to the grade 2 classroom to find out that she had stayed home sick. If any day to screw up I picked a good one because no one was the wiser..haha. In the first class I had this one little boy cuddle up to me and play with my sweater and tell me a story about it. I have no idea what he was saying but man was he a cute kid! He reminded me of my nephew when he was that age. So sweet. He made my day.

The rest of the day was pretty casual. We went for lunch with B's parents and Grandma and then came home and had a lazy day. Watching movies and doing a whole lot of nothing really. I had a nap and that was about it. B had gone off to pick and pull and went to his parents house to divide the hockey season tickets. Good times.

Now that it's Monday I am gearing up for the week. I enjoy my job so much, but by the time Friday came last week I was in need of a weekend. Just a close out the world type of weekend and now that I've had that I feel great!

Alright, I better get back to cleaning if I'm going to reach my goal. Until next time

Michelle.

New Beginnings

Today is Tuesday. I am very excited that the weekend is only 3 more sleeps away because that's exactly what I want to do....sleep. I dream of sleep.

Today at work was a fun day. I worked with this one little guy who just makes me laugh and the second little guy I worked with just melts my heart he's so sweet. I love Tuesdays!

I am excited for October to come and show it's face. B and I are going to the UK. How exciting! We are going for 2 weeks. We plan to go and see his Best Friend Jeff/Sarah and their newest addition to their family.

I am just so excited for where life is taking us. We have another niece or nephew joining the family in just a few weeks. Awesome!

Well until next time

Michelle

Unfortunate Events

Have you ever had an incident where you walk away blown away from the lack of communication? How about when you try to clear things up and it just blows up in your face? Let's just say that this happened on the weekend with some friends of ours. Hoping to walk away with a closer friendship it seems we have walked away without one at all. Very saddening to say the least.

I understand that feelings on the other side were hurt. That in itself is unfortunate, however when the apology was made it was unheard. There was interrupting that occurred throughout the conversation which resulted in not being heard out. This just really gets to me because had it been heard out instead of assumed what was going to be said there could have been reconciliation.

I want to make it very clear that in no way am I afraid of my husband. We have a very healthy relationship. I find his jokes funny even though others might portray it to be cutting, I'm just as dry and sarcastic. I realize that we have to cut that down in public because it can be over-heard as different than what it really is. I believe if you have an issue with someone you should go to that person and work it out. I believe that if you have an issue with someone it means more coming from you when telling them that feelings were hurt because coming from anyone else wouldn't have as much impact because it wasn't their feelings that were hurt. That is what I was trying to say and I believe I was misunderstood as saying that I am not able to talk to my husband.

Needless to say, but I will say it, I was shocked and saddened by how the evening went. I felt as though it wasn't all said that needed to be said, but what was the point, it wasn't being heard. I think what was really sad was when it was stated that "our friendship wasn't that strong anyways." and that one was willing to "sacrifice the friendship". This was extremely hurtful to me. I place a lot of value in the friendships I make, even if they're brand new. I don't invest my time in just anyone, I'm very selective in who I let in. I may appear as an extrovert but I am truly an introvert. I don't open up to just anyone and to hear that my friendship wasn't as valued made me take a step back and realize that I need to stop investing if it's not worth it to the other person.

Depressing blog post eh? Sorry to put such a damper on the sunshine but it's a reality that I am facing right now. I am just sad that it ended that way. That we left the table unresolved.

Until next time

Michelle