Well! School is officially done! Praise the Lord! Don't get me wrong, I loved school, I had better seeing as I will be working in the school setting, but with the summer coming up with so much going on, having school out of the way frees up so much time. It also takes a lot off the mind and the to do list. No more assignments and no more exams! I'm so excited if you can't tell. Last night I had my final exam and let me tell you it was a doozy. It was the hardest exam I have ever written. Question number one scared me as soon as I saw it was worth 25 marks. The exam was out of 60. I skipped that question and moved on. I jumped to question 3 which was also worth a substantial amount and that question alone took me about an hour to answer. It was a long just over 3 hour exam. It scares a person to look up after answering one question to see that an hour had already gone by! What about the rest of the test my mind screamed. I quickly went back to question one seeing as it was going to take more time to complete it than the rest of the test and since it was worth almost half the test it would be best to pour my energy into it.
After the exam was over Brenton texted me to see if I was coming to bible study. My response was "k". That's all I could muster. When I arrived I could hear the people talking but nothing and I mean nothing was computing. My brain was so fried I couldn't even understand my mother tounge. I've zoned out before but nothing like this. I was still alert and trying to participate but it was like everyone was talking a different language. Needless to say I didn't bring much away from that Bible study (it was over by the time I got there anyway, it was the social part I arrived for).
When I woke up this morning I was so relieved! The entire time I slept...or at least the only part I remember, I dreamed of writing that exam. It was like it never ended, almost on replay over and over and over. Any time I thought I was done I would turn the page and there was more to complete. Do you think I might be over-thinking this exam a little? haha. I was so happy when I woke up (early on my sleep in day) to relize the exam is over and I don't have to think any more. haha. Happy Summer everyone. I am looking forward to everything involved!
Good day to you! I don't really have an update...more of just a jump in to say, hey! I'm still alive! Now as school is coming to a close I find it harder to get myself to class. It's like, isn't this over yet?? haha. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy what I'm taking it's just been a long hull and I'm ready for a break. I'm very much looking forward to August :) I finished my projects for my one course. And as of 9:30 pm tomorrow evening one of 3 courses will be complete. I am so excited. Than I can turn my attention to my other 2 courses and get those next 4 assignments done :) Yeah, like I said, not much of an update, more like a checkin' in. I hope you are having a fabulous day, please leave a comment and tell me something fun you're going to do over the weekend.
So the wedding plans have started! It has been fun so far with only a few tears shed. The first week or so I was in a daze. If you asked me to complete a thought or put an idea together you could have been waiting a very long time for a response. I round it up to excitement and nervousness and allowing reality to settle in. For the next couple weeks I started dealing with reality in that this is a lifelong decision, and it's not something to just go along with. Yes I had thought about it before, but not to this depth. It was scary and nerve racking and really exciting all at the same time.
Wedding planning for me is hard. I'm very easy going and just go along with the flow. However, in the position of the bride you're called on to make major decisions. I am so fortunate in that my fiancee, Brenton, is so eager to get involved and wants to be a part of the planning and decision making. Having "Pow wow" chats to get out any thoughts I may be having (even if it's just a random thought that I don't have any intention on using, but just have to get it out of my head) heard, when it comes time to make a call on something, he's there to back me up in what we've already discussed and we both agreed on.
We booked the church in the first week. I also talked to my mom about 3 weeks ago about her trip out here. We talked about going wedding dress shopping and how she's really excited to go along with me. She asked me what I was looking for and I had no idea. So I told her I would go out the next day to just see what was out there. When I got into the store reality started to hit that I wasn't out looking for someone else's dress, but my own. I guess I was breathing funny when the girl came over to see if she could help me. I told her that the gown I was looking at at that moment was beautiful but it was a little off in some areas. I told her what I was thinking and she went away, returning with exactly what I had just described. It was amazing. The next best part was it was on the sale rack! (My Scottish bones rejoiced!) She asked me if I wanted to try it on and I said, "NO!" Then I explained that my mom was coming in a few weeks and I had to wait for her to come out to go shopping with me. I went home and called my mom. She wasn't home. So I called her again the following day and she was home. I told her about the previous day's events and she told me to go back to the store and try it on.
I walked back into the store and there it was, just sitting right on the front of the rack, calling out my name. I asked the lady if I could try it on and she said, "You have to try on more than just ONE dress!" I responded, "Oh, do I?" haha. So I picked out about 10 more. I went into the room and tried on the dress I really liked first. It was too small. So I hung it back up on the hanger. I proceeded to try on the next dress and didn't like it one bit. So I pulled it off and got redressed to go out and take in the next 2 gowns. She came over to me and asked how things were going. I told her about the issue with the first dress being 2 dress sizes too small. She said there was enough room in the seam allowance for it to come out that much. I proceeded to try on the next couple dresses, snubbing my nose at them. In the meantime she had taken the dress I still liked away. I tried on a couple more dresses and was like, really I want to try on that other dress again. So I snuck it back off the rack and back into the dressing room with me. I climbed into it and came out of the room. The lady saw me and proclaimed, "that dress is very nice on you, aren't you glad you tried on more than one dress!" I responded, this is the first dress. She looked slightly confused, 1, she hadn't seen me sneak it back into the dressing room with me and 2. She said, "I thought you said it was 2 sizes too small?!" I said, it is! And she said, no honey, it's maybe 1/2 an inch too small. So I bought that dress while talking to my mom on my cell phone. It is amazing, it's exactly what I had in mind even before I knew conciously what I was looking for.
The only time I've really cried during the planning so far is when it comes to cutting the guest list. I cry because I want everyone to be there. However, reality is that it's not possible to have everyone there. I just want everyone in my life to know that everyone has played an important role in my life and I don't take any friendship for granted! I cherish every single one. I am an introvert. Meaning I don't have many friendships, but the ones I do have are deep and significant in my life. Therefore, cutting anyone feels as though I'm cutting a part of myself. For those who aren't able to come I will visit you sometime, which might be better because than we can have one on one time. Anyone who knows me knows that I thrive on that time.
I'm just babbling now, so until next time.
Keep on Truckin'
Michelle.
Happy Easter Monday everyone!!! I hope everyone had a great weekend remembering why we celebrate it! Last week at school was very mentally draining. Who knew grade 4 would have such an affect. By the end of the week I was extremely pooped! B had told me that he was planning on having a fondue party on the Friday night and that I should invite some friends to come along. But before we could do that I had some errands to do. And so did he, he asked my brother if he could help him with getting something from Pick and Pull, but because my brother can't drive right now, due to a broken thumb, I suggested that my brother come with me for my errands, then we can meet up for lunch and then he can continue on with B. So that's what we did, we met up at the mall for lunch in the food court and my brother's girlfriend and one of my friends who both work at the mall, joined us for their lunch break. While we were having lunch B asked me if I could dress up really nice for the fondue party. I was already wearing a skirt and a cute top and I asked him if I could just wear that, he said, no and that we should dress fancier. So I reluctantly agreed. Then he asked me I could come over earlier to help him clean up his place because he had fallen behind. Again, I reluctantly agreed. After lunch we stopped at a dress store and that's when B started to get agitated like it was a big deal that we were taking a bit longer than previously thought. I didn't understand what the big deal was. So he left and my brother went with him, I bought a pretty dress:) When I got home my brother was in the garage and I was really confused and asked him why he wasn't with B at pick and pull. He told me that B had said that he was going to go on Sunday instead because he had gotten tied up at his parents house. I went inside the house so confused but too tired to put any energy into understanding. I went inside and got ready, I phoned B to see if was ok that I wear my new dress, he said, sure. So I headed over to B's house and when I opened the door his place was spotless. I was delightfully surprised! Then he said that I looked really pretty and that I should come and see what his mom bought him. I cheered, "Patio Furniture" cause he had told me that they had gone furniture shopping. I went over to the patio door and asked him if I could open it. He said yes, but had disappeared into the office. I was like, ok, so I opened the blinds and saw the whole balcony decorated with plants and white Christmas lights and candles. My first initial thought was, why are the candles already lit when we have to go to the grocery store to pick stuff up. Then my second thought was there was only one chair, so I yelled out to him, "There's only one chair?" (which later he revealed there was a whole set). Then out of the corner of my eye I saw someone bent over and I thought it was a neighbour on the other side of the patio railing (thinking someone was on their deck) then I realized, that's not a deck and I know her. It was my friend Sherena. My next thoughts were why is she here cause she said she couldn't make it because she was sick and why does she have a camera. Then it clicked when our song came (How does she know, from the movie Enchanted) on and Brenton came out and asked me to stand on the other side of the cushions he had set up. He got down on one knee and asked me if I would marry him. I nodded. Then he said, I had to say something and I said yes. We hugged and kissed and had our moment. It was exciting, scary, surreal. We took a lot of pictures and then started making phone calls. After about an hour of phone calls B told me that we still had to go get stuff for the fondue. I was like I thought you said you did that already and he told me that he lied and was caught up in the moment. So I was like, ok. So in one hand I'm talking to my dad on the cell phone, I'm on a mission in my mind of getting to the grocery store(which is a 2 min walk) to get some fruit, and I'm engaged! When we walked out of the building there was a limo parked there. I was still on my mission to get to the grocery store and B reached out to open the limo door. I yelled at him, "What are you doing?" and that's when I caught on that the limo was for us. We drove to his Grandma and Aunt and Uncle's house to let them know the good news! Then we drove over to his other Grandma and Grandpa's house, but they were not home. Then we went back to B's place and had a great fondue party. B's parents, B's brother A and his fiance T, My brother and his girlfriend, and Sherena were all there. It was so fun. It was such a whirlwind. Very surreal and nothing really sinking in. The entire night my brain couldn't complete a thought fully. I was very giddy and on cloud 9. It was a very good Friday indeed!
Howdy everyone in blogland. I don't really have anything too exciting to write about. I just thought I would drop in and say hello. My practicum just started last week. I started off in Kindergarten with two children on the caseload. It was really interesting and so fun! There was one little boy in the afternoon class who came up to me and said, "I forget your name, what was it again?" And I told him what it was but he could call me "Ms. M" if he forgets again. So for the remainder of the week that's what he called me. On Friday when we were all saying goodbye for the weekend he said, "We'll see you next week Ms. M". The little girl behind him in line piped up and asked him who Ms. M was. I said, that's me. And she said, "No, you're Ms. Mckay". So proudly the little boy told her our arrangement. It was so sweet. This week I'm in grade 4. There are 3 children on the case load. Today was the first day with them so getting to know them is still new. There are 2 girls and 1 boy. On our way back to the classroom after gym we were standing in the hallway waiting quietly. That is where the little boy stared me down trying to figure me out. It was quite funny. I know it's going to be a challenge for me to figure out the boundaries. It seems to me, only because I'm not actually in the role, or have the relationship with this kids already established, that there are lines and I don't want to cross one that would be inappropriate. Does that make sense? I know there have to be consequences, but being a practicum student am I to come up with them. I just don't know my exact role, I don't know when I should step in, or when I should completely back off. It's a balance I'm still trying to figure out. Tomorrow I meet up with the resource teacher for the first time. I'm really excited to meet her.
Throughout our day today there was one little girl in the class who was quite upset. This kind of had a domino affect and another little girl became upset. Then I had a bit of a coughing fit and it brought tears to my eyes, the guy I'm working under looked at me and asked, "Are you crying now too?!" haha. I told him, no I just have a cough. haha. So funny. Poor guy thinks he's surrounded by emotionally charged women.
On the other side, for the last few days I've been really feeling drained, and under the weather. I wonder if it's because I've been stressing myself out over my assignments, going through the grief process, and getting use to a new schedule. It has just put my system out of whack, hopefully a good night's rest will help. I know the cough syrup in the cupboards helped relieve the cough I had through the night. I never get coughs so I knew it was actually something.
